I'll clean your car with the great pleasure Das23 (and your helicopter and your jet). Cleaning a car, from engine bay to ash tray, is one of the few things that has always made sense to me - at every level.
Thankyou very much Jean053 and Alph too. I do think about quitting, more often than I should and I know how selfish and lazy this is of me. Afterwards I’m always angry with myself because it is the absolute antithesis of who I really am, or was?
Just as my emphysema seeks to subvert me, I find myself replying in kind, often with illogical or plain ridiculous strategies, sublimely designed I suppose to bolster my denial. For instance right now, I’m attempting to live drug free. My wife is understandably cross about this and says I’ll get what I deserve - and I’m unreasonably cross about that, and have pointed out that I already have. I’m just so tired of waking each morning to suck and blow into contraptions filled with chemicals I can’t even pronounce, let alone remember and seemingly all to so little avail. It may be a control thing, more likely an out of control thing, but I have the peculiar satisfaction of knowing I can’t breathe this evening because my lungs are plain shot - not because my medication is wrong again, or duff again, or both.
Something must be done. I am excited and very I’m interested to learn about the impact breathing can have if it’s done well; and I like very much the idea of learning how to breathe again. Thank you so much for raising this Jean053. Does anyone know of any good sites that illustrate these skills in practice?