Hello all,
Not too sure where to start. Hoping this community will help ease some of this depression my thoughts are racing. Recently I had a hard cough, small amount of blood in it. I panicked and went to urgent care for a chest xray. As I'm a smoker (in process of quitting). She tells me I have some spots that appear to be emphysema, I guess we just call it what it is copd. She referred me to a pulmo, but didn't say much more. So of course I've been googling like crazy, which has not helped me one single bit! I don't have a chronic cough or shortness of breath. My appt for a pft is this month then soon after I see the Dr. My precious boys are only 12 and 8 and all I can keep thinking about is being here for them for as long as I can. I'm scared of what the doctor is going to tell me. I know I sound like a worry wart. I'm just too young to be dealing with this. I should have dropped the cigs so long ago and keep beating myself up over it. Has anyone here dealt with this at the age of 34? How do I keep mind straight and out of these depressing thoughts? I'm a thin build and try to stay active. Not the healthiest eater. I'm scared lung cancer will get me soon. I'm just so damn scared. Any thoughts or words of wisdom to help me out are greatly appreciated. Sorry for the long post. Much love to you all here. ❤